Can't Fight The Feeling

September 2023

An International Collaboration: Australia, South Africa and Nigeria.

Lyrics:

In a world where failure is success
I’m the King
Submission is prosperity
I am a deity
Blinded and gaged I walk among the free
Who judge me and choose what pity I receive
An invisible force of negativity
Is enough to turn my reality into calamity
An unbelievable disaster
I’m a master
Take to all my hopes and dreams with a blaster
I got it wrong
Believing that I belonged
Because I’m either blind or a damn fool
Watching life pissing in my pool
Regrets cold hard fist smashing my brain
Over again in case I didn’t feel the pain
I try to avoid it
Close my eyes and pretend
I never saw it
A sleepwalker lost in a maze
So onward I blaze
Without any will and no detection
Almost with robotic perfection
Exist like a mirror without reflection
Take me out with the trash for collection
Why do I strive
All I have is time
No dreams to fulfill just waiting till the end of life
My silence builds oppression
A slave to the systems progression
How do I persist with this darkened destiny
How do I commit, when I’ve lost my identity
Can’t fight the feeling

Can’t fight the feeling
That I fought so hard but now I’m done
Can’t fight the feeling
Just existing isn’t worth the cost
Can’t fight the feeling
That the meaning of my world is gone
Can’t fight the feeling
That believing in myself was wrong

Can’t fight the feeling
That I fought so hard
Can’t fight the feeling
Is it worth the cost
Can’t fight the feeling
That the meaning of my world is gone
Can’t fight the feeling
That belief in me was wrong

CLOUD9: THE FUTILE PURSUIT

June 2023

4 Track EP in Collaboration with Alium.

Track 1: NO MORE

Lyrics:

It’s time!

All my failures add up by the number

All your fucking lies have been discovered

You

You will no longer hold me back

Dragged thru hell you had me by the neck

That was the last time I’ll give control

I will no longer let you take hold

The sweat the pain that I endured

It will not be for nothing

Your ways are disgusting

You fucking swine

Won’t take my life

I’ll break your chains and fight

No more

You will no longer hold me back

Dragged through hell you had me by the neck

The sweat and the pain that I endured

I will no longer be your whore

No don’t tell me I’m fine

Manipulate me and waste my life

I’ll no longer give control to you

No more

 

Track 2: FALLING

I said

I’m the one

You lead

Me to rot

No!

I was living up in the clouds

Never coming down

Till you called my name

I was so high, the energy was all I needed now I am weak

Help me

Find peace

Bring life back into me

Made it this far just to throw it away

Now that I’m so far gone, how will I get back

How will I ever be the same again

 

Track 3: NEVER COMING DOWN

Yeah! Never coming down

No one can stop me I’m flying free

Stay up this hill top till I decease

Nothing could bring me to my knees

I’ll rise rise rise to victory, yeah

Demons won’t take hold of me

I’ll live to bring them to their knees

Stand high atop all the debris

From all the destruction I’ll reap

The feeling with no contest

I’ll live with no regret

The faithless won’t understand

This time shall never end

 

Track 4: NOT MY FATE

My entire life

Looking for ones to blame

But it was only me

It’s always been the same

In the end I’m the one to blame

For my entire life

I’ll be the one to die

I’ll be the one to die

In the end

If I don’t fix this

It’s not too late

It’s not too late

This is not not my fate

It’s not my fate

In the end I’m the one to blame

For my entire life

I’ll be the one to die

If I don’t fix this

I will fight

It’s not my time

Take back my life

I will not die

In the end I know I’ll fix this

I know I’ll fix this

It’s not too late

This is not my fate

Until I realized this

In the end it’s me

Villainizing everything I see

I couldn’t get a break

I couldn’t turn it down

Now my life is flipped so upside down

I wish this all could end

Dealing with this all again

I’m done pretending that I’ve been okay

Feeling overwhelmed

I’m only but a shell

Of what I was just yesterday

 

All songs written and recorded by Paul Louis Villani

Lyrics and Vocals by Alium.